I've recently just realized who my real friends are in life and who actually cares for me and loves me. At this point, I've chosen to accept the fact that there are just some people and things we can't change in life and some things are just meant to happen regardless of what we want. It hurts that I just lost two of my closest friends, but amongst that, I was able to gain new ones and realize who really were my friends and who weren't.
As for my anxiety, it's still bad; but I'm starting to get a control of it again by making some changes with the people in my lives and things that are affecting me.
Other than that, I'm low-key starting on my journey of downloading Fortnite on the apple desktop tomorrow, just hoping my dad won't find out
P.S.
Thank you for all the nice messages, really appreciate it; miss chatting with you all so much already