@
Beasty
If you live a life with that mindset then I truly feel sorry for you. Most of what you wrote is complete bullshit.
Just stop feeling sorry for yourself and at least try to do something with your life. Don't waste time writing multiple paragraphs on this site because the fact is that it won't achieve anything except make me type back. I really didn't want to waste my time typing this up but whatever.
I still love life.