hello, this is the blog of sal.
although it is doubtful that anyone would pay attention.
well.. there is one guy out there who probably would, you know who you are.
Anyways its time to properly introduce myself I am sal, but sal is not my name.
~S.A.L~
not many know what it stands for, though I do.
sometimes I lose sight of it.
when that happens its not good for anyone.
do you know what its like when the first thing that you feel when you wake up suddenly stops?
I mean, when there are those mornings and you feel nothing.
but so use to having the feeling of "today is going to be an okay day" or "today isn't gonna go very well"
imagine being to use to it then it completely stops one day
that's what I'm talking about when I say I lose sight of it, when I feel nothing
no happiness.
no sadness.
no anger.
nothing.
why I say its not good for anyone?
because absents of feeling something
is to not care
now I know most take it very lightly when someone says "I don't care"
but there are two kinds of people who do not care
one who will get up and walk away if two people started to have a very serious argument right next to him/her
&
one who will calmly ignore or even listen, not letting them distract his/her activities even if the dispute was in relation to him/her
those are the two main instances of not caring..
but what if the absence of caring is getting to the point you don't feel hungry, but you know you haven't eaten in at least a day.
regretfully I have gone through this, and I'm sure many others have.
I hated that empty feeling of nothing
so I guess I had a conflict in my own mind
sometimes the empty feeling helps in tough situations
but most of the time I feel like I'm trapped inside of a box I can never get out of
this my friend is depression we've all had it in different cases.
i make this blog so that one day if I am lost I can come back and read this and see the person i was.
I cannot say I have found my way, more I have gotten better but who knows.
that was todays blog ill make another one tomorrow more based on how I got here.
