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I know I've hurt you a lot , i know I've hurt you more than enough , I've always been a cowardly idiot , always being afraid to face you when you have been angry , making you upset time and time again , hurting you badly , making you sadder and sadder , I'm guilty of everything , making you scared about where i might be , not being able to video call you most of the time and just making you sad 

Honestly i feel like that's all I've ever done 

Honestly  I don't know if I'll ever be forgiven 

But know this .

That despite everything I've never stopped loving you and always tried my best 

I'm far from perfect .. .. and I don't even know after being away like this for so long 

I'll ever even have a chance to be with you 

I feel like i really want to die 

I dont think I'll ever be able to take not being with you 

I don't think I'll ever be able to see you with someone else 


I know after what i did , i don't deserve you 

I need you 


I'm a prick 


I made you go through hell


But know this that I've been going through hell myself  

And words cant describe how guilty I feel