[Beasty]

I used to get beat up and alienated a lot until about 8th grade because as a kid I was a huge crybaby and an easy target for kids who's fathers abandoned them and mothers were drunk whores. I changed a lot around age 14-16, so much so that I was almost a completely different person, and naturally as you get older you realize that beating up a small crybaby kid cause your dad sells drugs to pay for your rent in the projects isn't a healthy way to deal with your problems.

I grew up, my peers grew up, but truth be told I never really belonged. My friends were outcasts as much as I was and I love those guys like family, so in a lot of ways I'm really glad life turned out that way. I got to learn what true friendship means in a world where that's not a common thing.

Maybe the bullying as a kid is why I tease to show affection. Who knows.